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irritatedOkay, I was on the bus today. I was sitting down peacefully minding my own business. A black man got on the bus and sit in a seat diagonal to mine. His friend got on a little later and then sat in the seat in front of me. They were your typical middle aged do-nothing Negro men. The one in front of me had to kind of face me when he turned to talk to the one that was seated diagonally to me and I felt boxed in. I've been harassed and bothered too many times by middle aged black men to be stupid so before the situation turned ugly, I told him "excuse me" and got up and left and went sit in a seat closer towards the front of the bus. I've been in dangerous situations before and I vowed that I'd never let myself be boxed in or cornered again. Men have a stronger pack instict than women IMHO. A man who may not do anything on his own can be transformed into a harasser or even a rapist with his "posse" there as an audience. And for men, two is not a company, it is a group. I've been in situations before and I don't give a damn who thinks I'm "racist"....if I don't feel safe or comfortable, I'm leaving.
After I left I heard them talking about me. They remarked that it used to only be white women who feared them and moved when they came near or locked their car doors as they walked by. They were talking about how they cussed this girl out at the bus stop because she was "black" and yet still was cautious and aware around them. As they said, "but now, "it's niggaz too dawg and other minority women who is minorities just like we is who do dis". Yes, that's their exact words. How ignorant. Basically, the coons were saying that unless you are white, you don't have the right to remove yourself from a potentially bad situation and be aware of yourself when around strange men. Women have to be careful. Before becoming so judgmental of us "stuck up bitches" they should walk a mile in our shoes and see the harassment and violence and inappropriate remarks and actions have made us wary of men, especially certain types of men. He actually got to sit closer to his friend when I moved, so he should've been thanking me. The ungrateful ass monkey!
I've said it before and I'll say it again....the older men are the worse when it comes to this behavior. They are more persistant, sneakier and they like to belittle you in a subtle way when you don't want to be bothered with someone old enough to be your father or grandfather. In my experience they are also meaner. They will turn on you in a minute over something stupid (I've seen seemingly decent black men screaming at their wives, "don't you talk to me like dat, when you got's one of my goddamn ribs". Yes, he was alluding to the Biblical tale to justify this. They are just so mean over something stupid. They were not raised in the women's rights era, so they get ugly when you don't fit in your *place*).
Also older people, no particular race this time, seem to jump to conclusions a lot quicker. A young man could just be standing in the way of something because they were lost in thought or because they didn't see you and they're all like, "these young people have no RESPECT! You wouldn't have any business if it weren't for us" and then they go off on some tirade on something that has nothing to do with the situation that they jumped to conclusions on. Those men didn't know why I did what I did. But no, just like the middle aged monkeys that they are, they just had to start flinging crap, staring shit and jumping to conclusions. How did they know that I moved because I didn't trust them not to start trouble with me? They wouldn't have known unless that's what they have done to people, that's what they would've done or better yet, that's what they have seen happen all too often in their shithole neighborhoods and dangerous public transportation systems. How primal.
