Ay yi yi
Mood:  not sure
Yesterday, I decided to head out on the buses and get some shopping done.  I had finished my shopping but yet had a long time to wait so I sat in the bus depot and waited.  I was alone.  I had seen a group of mestizo men just standing outside of the nearby dollar store.  After awhile, these men just came from the store and one by one they started lurking near the bus depot and then they sat down.  I pretended to be fixing up my bags but I was really looking at them and since I had on sunglasses, they could not tell what I was looking at.  They had this strange look on their faces...it was a twist between lustful and sneaky.  It was kind of a leer/grin.  There were about four of them and the most dangerous looking one was old enough to be my father.  I did not feel safe....I didn't know if they would try something and I didn't like the idea of being outnumbered.  Even if they didn't try to rape me I wasn't in the mood for any harassment.  I just got up and left and stood by the dollar store until the buses started filing in.  When I later had to walk past the depot to get on my bus, the men were no longer there.  I find this odd as I didn't see them get on any of the buses.  I hope I was just being paranoid but it seems to me like they were up to something.  Years ago, I would have stayed there just to not hurt their feelings or not look stuck up and like a racist.  Screw that...my safety and peace of mind is more important than appearances.  I've noticed something with these mestizo men and other mestizos who've harassed me....they are childlike and cowardly creatures on the whole.  The look on their faces was like a little kid about ready to steal a piece of candy from the corner store when no one is looking (the devious grin)....they know they shouldn't be doing it, but just like children, they will do wrong if they think they can get away with it.  Have you noticed that most of the time when men harass, they do it when other people such as seniors and men are not around or they do it in more secluded areas?  They want you more or less alone or with several other women they can belittle.  They will try to do it to defenseless "innocent looking" women and they will do it when they are "protected from getting caught" like in a car or way off from the woman in a distance.  When you get up on them, the blacks will own up to their behavior, but the mestizos will just pretend to be busy with something or pretend to walk off and not see you.  They are cowardly childlike creatures.  Well, I've had to grow up quickly due in part to men and harassment.  I am no longer childlike and I am onto the game.